Feeling lost and I don’t know really what I’m feeling of why. It’s like me against the world I need someone to pull me out of the darkness. I just want to break down and cry but I can’t I have to stay strong. If I let myself I’m scared what’ll happen. I don’t know what to do next what path to take. I have no one to talk to, I’m lost and alone. You can only fight for so long. I know what it’s like to not know where to turn and only thinking you have one way out. I’ll never do that but it does cross my mind. I fight it everyday because my family would be devastated…being bipolar sucks; idk I struggle with this everyday; no one knows how it feels or the demons you fight everyday..
I’m losing myself
Can barely breathe this air
Need to get away
Does anyone even care?
I’m no good with words
My thoughts get all mixed up
I can’t convey the things I feel
You’ve emptied out my cup.
“ What if your focus splits? What if you can’t be all in? Are you left with nothing at all? Maybe you just need to find a different path. Here’s what’s horrifying: what if you can’t give a hundred percent? Maybe you just need to go back to the beginning and start all over again.
“ Progress looks like a bunch of failures. And you can have feelings about that, because it’s sad…but you can’t fall apart. And then one day we will succeed and we will save a person’s life and we will walk on the moon.
“ The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth freaking hurts. No matter how hard we try or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, like it or not. But here is the truth about the truth, it hurts. So we lie.